Yes. And?

If you could travel to any place and time for one week, where would you go?

I dont wanna go to a different time. I have no interest in digressing into the past, and I fear what I'll find in the future. So, I'll take the beach for a week instead :)

The smell of gasoline: Love it or hate?

Used to LOVE it, now I hate it. Figures.

What's your favorite movie of all time?

Princess Bride. Definitely.

Im awake. Its 2:43 am and I cant sleep. Im rolling around in pain...I think I broke my ankle. I was just hoping I could go to sleep and be ok in the morning. Theres still a chance of the latter, but the afore mentioned sleep part isnt coming easy. Meh.

Im so bored. Theres nothing to do or watch at this hour. No one to talk to. And I hurt. A lot. Ive got a black bruise on my ankle now that hurts oh-so-bad, yet I feel this insane urg to poke at it...which I have. Big mistake ow! Now theres a way to stay awake. I dont have insurance, so if its broken, that will definitely suck and Im so screwed. And this will be like the 3rd time Ive broken the same ankle. Me and gravity never have really been friends. Gravity has always had it out for me...I dunno why.

So now I just keep thinking of all the "oh crap what now" senarios. I just signed a lease on a studio space on Monday, and am still moving stuff into it. Ive got a lot of work to do in there. How the hell will I manage that with a banged up leg. Hm. Im also not a fan of driving with my left foot. Not to mention the walking up the hill to get into the studio...but on the bright side, I suppose I could roll back down to my truck at the end of the day...or perhaps slide on cardboard...? Theres a thought. Wondering how Im gonna get all those boxes into the postoffice tomorrow. Where is my husband when I need him, oh wait, in another state, thats right. Lotsa help there dude.

Ok, I gotta stop thinking about it. If youre out there...talk to me. Im still bored and wide awake :(

What question do you hate being asked?

"How much do you weigh?" Geez people, there are smaller people in the world than me. I wear a freakin size 6, Im not that skinny.

Im back again. Ive been really busy. But now Im back, and Im changing my username...just a heads up.

What's your favorite winter activity?

Hoping for snow, lol.

I need to do a better job with my Vox blog. I feel shame.

I spend all my time over on my blogger http://implexa.blogspot.com ...in case youre interested ;) Come see me!

So a few weeks ago I found out my friends wife was pregnant. Last Friday I find out that she had the baby at 24 weeks, that he was alive, but was having some problems. Come to find out tonight, baby Micah died as I was being told about his birth. They had to pull the plug and take him off life support, they held him as he died. I dont even know what to say...or think. I hate that this has happened to them. This was their 2nd child, they lost another about 2 yrs ago. As I was hearing that news, all I could think is "I wanna barf." Up-chuck seems to be the only reaction my mind and body can come up with. This makes me sick to my stomach. I want to bring their baby back. so. bad. Im all teary and crying and sick over it, its not even my baby. I havent seen my friend and his wife in over a year (they moved away some time ago) and I dont really get to talk to him much anymore. I just cant take any more baby death. Please God, just keep all the babies safe. Nobody deserves that.

I was on the phone with another friend as she's telling me the news and wondering what to say, how to feel. She says, "None of us have ever had anything this bad happen, at least not where we got to hold the baby." All I could think was how I would give anything to get to hold my babies once. To be able to see them alive. To kiss them. To touch them. To have pictures to keep. She questioned whether or not pictures would make it suck more. To each their own, but for me, I would love to have had pictures. The memory of that baby will never go away, so its not like pictures would serve as a reminder that otherwise would not have been. You will never forget your child, nor will that immense sense of emptiness and loss magically disappear over time. I know I havent forgotten mine, and I never will. 

"It is Christmas in the heart that puts Christmas in the air." ~W.T. Ellis
How are you celebrating Christmas this year?

Well, Im packing right now and Im about to head out to see family 3 hrs away. Tomorrow Im heading to the VA-NC state line to meet up with some friends, then possible to Richmond to see another friend, then back down to Greensboro NC to see my cousin and her new house. Yep, thats my Christmas. I sure hope my internet still works out in the sticks where Im going today! lol :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!,